urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns yummy Jenabel 2005-03-15T03:21:35Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:6122 2005-03-15T03:21:35Z 2005-03-15T03:21:35Z it just boggles my mind at how bad this year is, <br />not only for me but for like everyone around me. <br /><br />dealing with an alcoholic friend, <br />random death out of the blue, <br />fevers and never-ending colds, <br />grandma having a stroke, <br />someone stealing my identity, <br />and now a 200 dollar phone bill, <br />with more minutes to be paid for in the next month<br />...eeek...not looking forward to that one.<br /><br />and these are just some of the incidents <br />that stand out in my mind right now<br />let alone all the shit i had to see my friends deal with<br />and its ONLY march!<br />brighter days to come?<br />hopefully<br />but til then all i can say is...this sucks! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:5837 2005-03-02T05:40:37Z 2005-03-02T05:40:37Z R.I.P my dearest FLUFFY<br />we will miss you!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:5391 2004-11-17T04:43:21Z 2004-11-17T04:43:21Z LIFE SUCKS THEN YOU DIE. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:5278 2004-11-08T21:25:51Z 2004-11-08T21:25:51Z well i've created a dilemma for myself<br /><br />depending on my grade for Life Science 4 that will be handed back on wed<br />i have two options:<br />1)fail the class so that i can retake it and get a higer grade<br />2)somehow ace the final, in hopes of getting a "C"<br /><br />this is what life at UCLA is like<br />it's not about learning necessarily but being able to strategize<br />and manipulate the system for your own good<br /><br />so moral of the story: never take four hard classes again!!!<br /><br />sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:4876 2004-11-05T05:16:00Z 2004-11-05T05:16:00Z yeah so i'm in one of those depressed slumps that came often during my first and second yr in college, meaning it's starting once again for a consecutive third--FAILURE---i thought i did enough failure during the last past two yrs to cover for my whole life. but i was mistaken. <br />i really hate when u study so hard for nothing...was i in the right class? everything looked so foreign on those 11 sheets of paper which made up my final that they call a "midterm". it's weighted as heavy as the final so shouldn't it be called a final?????...huh???...sigh....AND to make things worst the girl in lab was bragging at how well she thought she did. thanks for rubbing in it whatever your name is. <br />everything that could possibly have went wrong did today. be it scanner, copiers, midterms--two to be exact--and getting locked out of my apartment once again, and yet knowing that no one would be here to open the door the day i needed it the most---that one i forshadowed when i realized i left my keys at home that morning. <br />well at least i'm becoming a pro at breaking and entering. maybe that's how i'll be making a living in the future.<br />man...wont this day just end!!! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:4698 2004-10-25T18:14:25Z 2004-10-25T18:14:25Z well if anyone out there would like to be nice<br />and get me a christmas present<br />here is a little hint as to what i want:<br /><br /><a href="http://hedgehogvalley.com/pogsavail.html">http://hedgehogvalley.com/pogsavail.html</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:4565 2004-10-18T18:05:23Z 2004-10-18T18:05:23Z i'm sooooo sleepy right now<br />my narcolepsy is kicking in <br />and i'm trying so hard to defeat <br />this overwhelming sense of <br />sweet slumber approaching...<br />oh the temptation<br /><br />all that i can think of at the moment<br />are baked potato mocassins<br />and my cashmere soft green scarf that<br />is currently keeping my neck warm.<br />if i lived in transylvania, <br />i'd be in big trouble<br /><br />well off to take an hour nap...the battle<br />has been lost. i surrender. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:4234 2004-10-14T20:20:52Z 2004-10-14T20:20:52Z well after two months of boredom at home <br />i have entered my third yr of college...<br />yes third yr...believe it.<br />now i am adjusting to living with two potheads<br />and trying to stay sane with my dreaded chem lab<br />there's not much i know bout life except<br />for the fact that i am not cut out for lab work<br /><br />how are the boys here at ucla?...some argentinian <br />boy asked me yesterday during my interview <br />for who knows what <br />BOYS?!?! HAHAHA...what a joke...seriously<br />i wouldnt know sadly. the first words <br />that popped into mind were ugly and really ugly<br />but of course i worded that a lot nicer...hopefully<br />maybe i was a little too blunt but whatever.<br />theyre gonna have me for a full five minutes <br />sitting... trying to calculate a full four yrs <br />tuition for them in silence. stupid question.<br />but yes in a mundane life like mine that was <br />quite the exciting moment, i felt like <br />a star....well sort of.<br /><br />plus it made me feel like i have friends<br />haha...man socializing sucks ass...but for sanity's sake<br />it must be done<br /><br />well... enough for now<br />maybe my next update in a yr will be more thrilling<br />literature urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:4040 2004-04-21T20:26:48Z 2004-04-21T20:26:48Z finally declared a biology major...took me 2 years to commit but whatever. <br />saw a beautiful sunset yesterday and that made me feel better. dont ever underestimate the gentle power of our natural surroundings to rejuvenate our inner being from the stresses of the modern world. the worries of everyday life seem so trivial when one takes the chance to experience and enjoy the simple things in life. the opportunities are ceaseless, so take a minute of each day and appreciate just being. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:3806 2004-04-01T19:18:40Z 2004-04-01T19:18:40Z well my stupid my.ucla website is all jacked up today...piece of shit. and neph burnt a paper towel on fire somehow and now the apt smells like burnt charcoal. i'm probably inhaling lots of bad fumes. but whatever like there's anymore brain cells left in me to toxify and kill. <br />i've realized that as much as i study...a B is my crowning glory sadly. as long as i graduate i'll be a happy camper.<br />by the way, what happened to the sun?<br />it like disappeared all of a sudden and ruined my plans for sunbathing.<br /><br />life is so strange...we go about trying to entertain ourselves between daily routines...this is our whole existence? pretty pathetic...maybe i should devise a plan to save a third world country and make use of myself for once. anyone care to join me? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:3532 2004-04-01T03:20:53Z 2004-04-01T03:20:53Z so found out that caesar chavez is reason to not go to school...that was interesting...went to the Getty finally after a whole 2 years of living next door to it. it was very purdy but too cold to really enjoy all of it. there's always next time i guess. <br />very happy now that there's finally food in the fridge. my goal is to save money and lose weight. so i have a poor man's diet...thank god for TV dinners ( 5 for $5 @ Ralphs...wohoo!!!) <br />tried on my new bathing suit today and realized my ass is non existent. sadness...tear drop...well what can i do. its amazing how such a little piece of cloth could cost so much money. <br />oh and now i have a new goal...to watch spanish news until i become fluent...that might take a very long time. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:3266 2004-03-25T06:44:32Z 2004-03-25T06:44:32Z yay i get to hang out with shamu and his friends tomorrow!<br />havent been there in ages...so very excited<br />then i have a whole week to just do nothing<br />oh the joys of being so popular<br />i love hanging out by myself<br />talking to myself<br />laughing with and at myself<br />maybe i should find friends and expand my circle...or dot(not a typo)<br />only those who know me would get it<br />hahah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:2850 2004-02-26T01:02:03Z 2004-02-26T01:02:03Z LIFE SUCKS AGAIN!!!<br /><br />shitty day, some people suck, gonna quit my job finally<br /><br />but buried in the shit are some gems: mario, stella, shari and neph. thanks for keeping me sane today<br /><br />anyone up for a long road trip to purify your soul? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:2723 2004-02-23T03:33:56Z 2004-02-23T03:33:56Z well thursday was an interesting nite...but at least my hookup wasnt a little boy...haha neph. but anyways i'll spare the nitty gritty details.<br />uh so now i have found a new hobby, which is designing clothes. i drew a sample prom dress for my sister so that'll be fun to see come to life. itd be soooo cool to be fully in control of my whole wardrobe and have everything custom made for me by me. <br />anyways...today discovered little india exists. Mmmmm indian food. my fave. saw about a million saris and bangles while looking for shari's dress for a wedding. <br />i think i'm becoming an indian wannabe urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:2369 2004-02-18T01:57:07Z 2004-02-18T01:57:07Z well today i bought some purdy smellin candles to make up for the non smelly one i bought the other day.<br />i went down for a sniff but i didnt realize how close my face was to the other flame so i cinged my eyelashes on my left eye...yup me and fire do not play well together. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:2288 2004-02-09T01:40:53Z 2004-02-09T01:40:53Z today started out with school. yes school on a sunday how crazy is that? but it was just a one hour review sessioon for my chem lab. i drove there cuz i thought parking meters were free on sunday but ucla sucks! so it wasnt... <br />i had to dig throughout my car scraping up any silver shiny thing i can get my hands on. and still i didnt have enough for the full class time but i left anyways cuz i was already late. i was pretty sure i was going to get one of those lovely parking tickets to add to my collection but surprisingly i didnt. <br />i chose not to leave class early because i told myself that school is more important and that i'd rather pay 35 bucks than get a bad grade, so luckily i reasoned this because i stayed like 30 minutes past meter expiration without getting a violation. phew!!! <br />that actually made my day plus the sun was shining bright today so i drove down to the beach and people watched...then cruised down sunset and made a left turn to check out the houses. <br />yup no houses just huge ass castles (masion is the modern term i guess) yeah not the best idea cuz i realized i really didnt fit in driving my tiny little carrolla so i sped out back to the real wrold where i belong. everyone "in there" had like bmws and mercedes. quite intimidating, felt like a sore thumb. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:1870 2004-02-04T22:32:33Z 2004-02-04T22:32:33Z well my chemistry midterm wasnt bad, but it wasnt good either. but that is all behind now. i just have to focus on memorizing lots and lost of fun bio facts for tomorrow. <br /><br />my life science professor was like blah blah blah...this is how you should study for my test but of course its too late now. TOO LATE! but i havent even started yet! &lt;<sigh>&gt; <br /><br />goal for tonight: expunge all unnecessary chemistry and replace with an abundance of molecular biology crap...(oops did i say that? i meant loeads of beautiful enlightening biological information) <br /><br />oh and by the way, all this stress from school is growing on my face. yuck! pimples are the most annoying things ever! thought to self: pretty face or school, pretty face or school....oh the dilemma urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:1696 2004-02-03T05:00:02Z 2004-02-03T05:00:02Z the stress hasnt hit me yet for midterms this week...but it will soon come. i know it. but after thurs at 6:30pm i will be soooooo relieved. until the next week starts and two more midterms await me. but at least i have two things to look forward to on thurs, party and another party. the first being a zoolander derelique theme and the one after is an 80's theme. me and neph have our oh so cute outfits ready to wear and to scare those stupid greek people. well wish me luck on my tests...or better yet pray for a miracle cuz lord knows i need one. it sucks being the one and only dumb asian in ucla. why cant i fit the stereotype! oh well... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:1428 2004-01-31T03:12:11Z 2004-01-31T03:12:11Z oh the joys of being a woman...cramps are not something i can ever get used to. luckily there are drugs for this. I love Midol! <br />well anyways got to watch little mermaid today because we still lack cable for our decorational TV. Only videos permitted for my entertainment. actually i dont think i even watched most of the movie because i would get in and out of my sleepy languor...oooh big word. i just like having noise in the background, makes me feel like there are people around me and i'm not locked in my room alone, the obvious reality<br />Well i think i lost weight due to all the walking i do everyday to get to class, my clothes are fitting a lot better and my back fat might be lessening. yippee! <br />and today has potential to be a good night because we were invited to Keith's birthday party...yay partay!!! i hope i dont start "p-m-s"ing though. i better drop two more midols before we head out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:1102 2004-01-30T03:50:32Z 2004-01-30T03:50:32Z today is a good day. i woke up happy and energetic which was a complete 180 from yesterday. wow my moods fluctuate so easily. i'm actually not doing as bad in my chem lab as i thought too. there is still hope for me yet. <br />and mission impossible seems to actually be possible. i CAN make friends! woohoo!!!Nish is now my "new" indian friend because we exchanged numbers and I ran into a couple of people i havent seen in a while and that was fun, catching up and whatnot. Dr. Jen says "socialization is good for your health". you can quote me on that<br />My monthly horoscope in vogue told me that "good things come to those who wait". so maybe if i'm patient things will just fall into place, and one day i will have a nice boy who likes me. til then vogue said that even with some missing pieces my life is fabulous! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:975 2004-01-29T06:09:11Z 2004-01-29T06:09:11Z today i believe i have come to an all time low. i knew i wasnt as smart as before but now i'm getting true hard core evidence of this lack of intelligence. I feel like no matter how hard i try or how much i work i get nowhere. Everyone seems to be racing past me to get to their goals but i dont even have one to run to, yet alone run. Losing control over your life sucks. Stupid society. who made up school anyways? does it really matter if we get A's? This is just another way to separate people and make them angry and jealous of those "above" them. What's wrong with just laying out in the sun and watching the little kids and puppies running around on campus? These are things that make me happy, so innocent and pure. not corrupted by the evil ways of life. Enjoying the little things in life are fun, but no one can make a living off of that. You must be successful, that is what they say, but labs aren't fun! they suck...just like boys. I'll never understand either one of them. I just need a break, a nice vacation to renew my spirits and collect my sanity. Just when i think i can relax, mondays roll around and the vicious cycle continues. yes, life just seems pointless at this moment. hopefully it will change or i can change it, but for now i am just an angry little asian girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:kiss_my_horns:653 2004-01-28T06:01:56Z 2004-01-28T06:01:56Z wow this lj thing is quite harder than i thought...geesh! slowly but surely i will make it look more put together. it's just that my exciting life of school, work, and homework are my priorities right now. so be patient with me...thanks moy for helping me! i'm so glad i have a sister who has no life but to fool around with weird computer nonsense. <br />well that is all for now.